Changed

Lately, my girlfriends and I talk about our future but mostly it's all about the common girly things. Like who is going to marry first, how our bridal shower would be, who is that special someone, what would our future apartment look like, are we going to be housemates (because trust me it would be disaster, our future neighbours might be sick of our craziness), what is the theme for our wedding, what would we name our first child, how many wordrobes we will have and so sooo much more! Until at some point I told them, 

"guys, i think we are getting older"

Which is true and by getting older I really mean getting more mature than before. As I grow older, I started to think more logically and realistically now (well i'm always the most mature and cool among my friends btw, it just that, this time it's different). I know some of you might say that at my age I am not fully expose to the real world yet but my point here is, me. I personally think that I changed. I started to worry about my outfits or do I need more tops and bottoms or why I dont have enough maxi dress and I started to search for famous events planner (you know just in case if i want to throw a party or surprise for my bestfriends or even for myself lol) which is obviously I can just celebrate their special day by having dinner together or hangout or what so ever but thats the thing! I feel much more eager than I am before. About everything. 

Last week, I bought a watch from Zalora (a shopping online site) and before I purchased the watch I asked for my friend's oppinion which one is nice and suit me. She literally suggested me some watches that I used to like, back then. So I told her, 

"um, yes of course those watches are very nice but i think i prefer something casual now

 like more ladies-ly and not the lame-teenage-pattern one"

"oh wow! haha okay i thought you love those patterns because i saw you wear them 

in high schools. nevermind, i'll search for something else"

See what I mean? Haha but dont worry atleast I didnt turn into a more childish person right? Well you can say that, its actually my mind are getting older. Mature in thinking and handling stuff in life. I'm not scared of growing old bytheway (but i have to admit that i want to look forever young though lol), I'm just scared of not achieving everything that I want to do. But true success comes from God so I believe that He will help me to achieve my dreams in the future.  

Dont be shock when someone you know has changed, probably he/she moved on from their dark history and probably they wanted to be someone better. As for me, I am still the old me. It just that, I started to think about future-life kind of stuff lately. It must be the age. I hope I dont regret when I reach the adulthood.