Brave

I am confused whether people are taking advantages of me or I am really that weak? Sometimes I wonder is this my true self, why am I not brave enough to stand up for myself or even speak out? As I'm tired of being hurt, I still cant manage to be brave for some stuffs. I dont know if being a good person is a weakness or a benefit for me. You know when you are good, people love you. But at some point people use that to stab you from the back. I did not say that I am a good person, I can be mean sometimes depends on how you treat me and how your attitude towards me. But my 'evil' self can only stands for a few minutes before I regret of what I said or do. 

New Room

Its like stepping into a new room. Different people, different feelings. I dont even know whether this is normal or not, losing people that I once care about at this young age. You know people dont want you in her/his life anymore when they keep pushing you away. But now I realised that its not worth to fight for. As I grow older, I decided to let things go even it kills me inside. Deep, in the inside. Because they said, "when you keep on pushing people away, you will end up to be alone." So I decided to just stand in the middle doing nothing while people around me come and go. Well its their choice.