Fly High

It was a sicky day for me since last night. We went to Curve to celebrate my aunt's birthday. I am pretty thankful that the fever strikes right after I got back home. It sucks bytheway. But that is not my point actually. While they all were busy shopping, my eyes also busy looking around. Admiring things. Along the Flea Market, there were this small section for this one band to perform for the people at the street. I stop and look for awhile. I smile. The song is pretty catchy and cant stop playing in my head. Suddenly I saw one cute couple sitting on the bench infront of me. The guy was giving his partner a beautiful ring. What a great moment I saw. My mind was flying high. It is like, I'm bodyly present, but not my soul. 

At The Moment

I'm was in the car on my way home from a busy life cycle. Arrived in the evening, whilst looking out at the window, I was listening to i hate you, dont leave me by Demi Lovato. I was thinking about you, it has always been you. At the moment, I have alot of things in my mind. But it looks like I need more time to translate it into words that humans can actually understand. It is the best to forget the past and move on. Which is not that easy for me. At the moment, I want to focus on my study and try to achieve flying colours results for the sakes of my parents. All I ever think of lately are future, friendship and love again and again. I am still learning of being patience and not too eager to know something. Which it may lead to disappointment. 

From Far

The first time I look at you
I deeply in love with your smile
The smile managed to caught my heart
Make myself brave to approach you 
I did eventhough I was afraid
Thank god you responded
We talked. We laughed.
Eventhough only thru device
That makes me happy

What To Do

Tell me what to do to stop this negative thoughts of mine. Tell me what to do to handle this thing right. Tell me what to do to make us together, as one. Tell me. 

People said you have to fight to bond a true friendship/relationship. But what do you do if the partner/that one person give you excuses. I cant asume that everything is close to the end, I cant. I still can fix this. I'm just wondering what is going on with her? You dont make promises when you know you cant really fullfill it. It is like you are giving the other person fake hopes. I cant imagine what is going to happen in the future about us. Too much speculation that I made the good things of course, but will it be in reality or just in my mind? 

Unknown Love

Am the type of girl that not easily to approach and hard to express my feelings. But when I love that someone, the face cant get out from my mind. I shared with my bestfriend, Sfnz about this one guy. We imagined alot of things what might happen if he and I will be together. But too bad, it is impossible to be with him for some reason. So last year, I decided to let him go from my precious mind and heart. "Way to go beb!" said Sfnz. He deserves someone who is better. Im proud of myself. We dare to dream. Dream the things that will never be ours. 

 I want someone worthy of liking. I’m jealous of how everyone is been able to fall for someone. Because I am the type of person who hard to fall for someone unless he did something that really impress and attract me. 

I miss the feeling of being loved, having a person I adore care about me and worries if one tear fell down my eyes.I miss the feeling of waking up in the morning with a smile just because I know today this person will light up my whole day. Sometimes, it hurts when you miss someone that does not misses you. Most days I am content with being alone but sometimes when I watch a movie with a love story in it, I realise that even though I am content with being alone, I don’t want to be lonely. I think what I’m trying to say is that would be nice experience this thing called, ‘ unknown love’. A love that comes by itself. 

Quite envy with V, for having a partner who support her almost at everything. Gentleman and so much more. You are so lucky to have brother FA in your life dear sister VY.

"so, whos the next prince charming?"

"still searching. young gentleman maybe"

"who his father own an equestrian horse club?"

"ha i wish"

Heartbreaking

Humanity. I wonder why our world is full with cruelty. Some said, that it is not life if you dont have problems to face. Well cruelty is not a problem that we have to face in our life actually. We can stop them, whether cruelty against mankind, cruelty against animals or against nature.

Today, we see the very same thing happening when one nation attacks another nation in order to control its resources. I wonder, what were they thinking of killing an innocent children infront of their parents? It was so heartbreaking to see they fought for their country at the very young age and to see they are hiding/sneaking out from the cruel soldiers. Can you imagine waking up one day and your parents are gone, your house is destroyed and your family too. Oh God I cant. 

Survived

It has been a long time since I'm blogging. Quite busy with life. High school was definitely the best time of my life. I have many amazing memories, and tons of friendships from it, but that’s about it. Yesterday I woke up and said, "Damn, Im already in senior year!" You know the feeling when you have been through a long journey of school life. Almost 11 years. And this year is my final year of school season. No more uniforms. No more homeworks.