Balance

So basically, I have nothing to do. Dissapointment conquer my feelings. I am the type of person who believe life needs to be balance. Arent you feel tired of  making a lot of efforts in relationship and friendship but they just dont give it back? Well I feel you. Supposely no matter how far we are, we can keep the long distance relationship on. But in my case its different. I asked myself, "do I even have bestfriends?" I forgot. 

How come you expect me to do this alone? All by myself. I cant.

This year, we kinda splitted. One of my bestfriend moved to Switzerland for five years. And the rest of us moved to different schools. I really hope we can get along but no. Sometimes I feel like, I rather tell all of my problems to a stranger than my friends/family member who will judge me after that. Thats just my oppinion. Dear people and my dearself, learn to appreciate what you have infront of you before time forces you to appreciate what you had.